heavy heart

as scary as the storms were here yesterday, it is nothing like what our neighbors to the south endured. i can't even imagine what they must be going through down in alabama and my heart is so sad for them. if we lost our home i really have no idea what we would do. we don't have family here and we have a little one to care for. your home is your home. your safe place. often i think i take it for granted. i complain about all the things i don't like about it. i forget to remember what a blessing it is to have a little space to call our own. but it's not something to be taken for granted. safety from the storms is not something to be taken for granted either. as we speak there are thousands without power and shelter all over the south from yesterdays deadly storms. and i am counting my blessings and not taking for granted that we slept in our warm beds last night. i hope that there are many stories of amazing protection that come out of the events of yesterday.

one long night

well, we've officially been initiated into the world of parenting... we made the middle of the night trip to the ER. sweet nuggie had a colossal meltdown. she's a fussy baby, but this was an all time record screaming fit, even for her. and we couldn't console her. i tried. bub tried. we bounced. we tried bottles. we used baby tylenol. we rocked. and walked. and listened to music. nothing. nothing would calm her down. so i thought something was seriously wrong. we loaded her up and headed to the children's hospital. she cried all the way there and cried all through triage. and then we settled into the waiting area and the little stinker calmed right down. we were there about two hours and she was calm as can be. so we asked if we could take her home. a doctor came out and gave her a quick check over and couldn't find anything wrong with her. nothing. thank the Lord for this, but she sure did scare us. i was sure something was seriously wrong. she had to go see her pediatrician this morning, just to make sure all is well and he confirmed it. she's healthy as can be. i just wish i knew what upset her so much last night. she was hysterical. cried so much her little eyes were bloodshot and she threw up. my sweet little angel. she's resting now. hope she can get some good sleep.

trip to the dentist

i had a dentist appointment this afternoon. i really don't like going to the dentist, but then again, who does? i always seem to have a new cavity or find i'm in need of a crown or i've got a cracked tooth - ick! i spent my childhood without a single cavity and then hit my 20's and bam - my teeth started literally falling apart. today i met our new dentist since he took over the practice when my old dentist went off to have her second bambino. and he looked like he was our age. it's weird when your doctor or dentist starts to be your age. it always make me think - what have i done with my life? here's this guy who's gone off to dental school and now has his own practice and i'm this shmuck with a music business degree that did me no good at all. anyhow - it was just weird. he was soooo young and when i called him "sir" he like for real got feisty and exlaimed that i should NOT call him sir. uhhhh, he's my dentist. what am i supposed to call him? buddy? pal? dental dude? sir just seems appropriate.

i had sort of the reverse situation yesterday. we had a new pest company come by to offer us an estimate b/c they use more natural products and now with nuggie and izzy in the house i'd love to use less chemicals. anyhow, long story short this guy kept calling me "young lady"... it sorta irked me. and he talked down to me, like young lady, now are you SURE you've got a problem with brown recluse spiders? and little lady, you done ever hear about what we like to call - gnats??? ugh! it's my house buddy. i'm a momma. former working professional. wife. NOT a little lady. i'm almost 30 for crying out loud. i'm not too keen on "ma'am" but talking down to me and calling me little lady isn't quite right either!

weighn' in

hello monday. i still have a few hours left of it to blog my fatty mcfatterson entry... UGH. i am sooooo ready to lose this silly weight. but alas it plagues me. it is so hard to find the time and/or energy to work out and eat right when you've got a crabby 6 month old, school (and now finals) to fret over and an added bundle of joy with our 8 week old puppy. ugh. ok, that's out of my system. this isn't all whines and complains. this last week i was sick. icky sick with an awful headcold, so i didn't work out at all. i took nuggie on a couple of walks, but that was it. i couldn't breath through my nose at all, so working out just didn't seem like a good idea. i had no appetite though, so that helped :-) i know i've lost another pound! woot! and i'm just about fitting back into my old capris. which will be great since it's now stinky hot hot hot here! i also made a wonderful tofu spinach lasagna that was super yummy and low cal.

a sweet friend lent me a book called "made to crave". i'm only on chapter 2, but it's already very interesting. it's a different spin on our sugar cravings and what exactly we're trying to fill when we give in to them. i'll let you know how it goes when i'm done.

well, another spring week in nashville and two days ahead of us filled with death storms... i'm so not a fan. let's hope they're not too bad.

oh and it's my last full week of classes. next week are finals and then i'm done with my first semester!

i just realized...

ok, so i just realized that my title of the last post made absolutely no sense. i had this whole post planned in my head about about how there should be a witness protection type program for mommas. wouldn't it be nice to dial them up and get whisked away with the promise that your babes and hubby would be looked after, but off momma goes to an undisclosed location. a quiet place with a big soft bed, a hot shower and a nice meal that you didn't have to cook. oh and yea - no one can bug you. no phone calls. no bills to fuss over. no crying babes or hubby. just 24 hours peace and quiet... and that all would have made more sense if i hadn't gotten distracted by coupons and khol's and luggage! just had to explain :-)

mom witness protection program

oh. my. goodness. i can't seem to shake this cold/sinus infection/plague. i feel like poo. thankfully bub and nuggie are both feeling better. i took a nice big dose of nyquil last night and slept till almost 8 this morning. that hasn't happened in a LONG time. thanks to bub for getting up with the babes and the pup and letting me sleep in :-) i feel much more rested, but i still can't hear much out of my left ear. add that to my already terrible hearing and i'm all - what??? say again??? huh??? i didn't hear you??? i think bub is gonna kill me. poor hubby has to repeat everything 16 times before i catch it.

we have a fun day planned... ok, well not so much fun, it's all errands - but  for sure lots of family time. we are heading down to cool springs to hit up khols. we need new luggage. badly. ours is in awful shape and falling apart and since bub is about to head out of the country and we're taking our first plane ride with the nugster - we need something a little bigger and well, not broken. i've got a good coupon... oh dear, hold on. am i for real blogging about khols, coupons and new luggage??? what have i turned in to???

i need to start thinking about what we need to pack for our trip to portland. nuggie is a bit high maintenance as you all know and i want her to feel as comfy as possible in her new surroundings. i think all her daily stuff though - diapers, formula, baby food we'll just grab when we get out there, that'll save on some room in our suitcase. but she'll need her sound machines, nightlight, music, clothes, meds, toys, blankies, baby towel... oh goodness. i'm tired just thinking about all of this. it'll be fun to see my sweet little nephew G though and my momma and sis. we're taking the kiddos to the beach one day and the rose gardens. it will be a nice trip. just uh, an adventure getting there and back.

heading off to the grocery store shortly as well - we have coconut tofu curry, moroccan chicken and bean quessedillas on the menu for the week - yum! and i'm also hoping to run by a lowe's today - i hear they're giving away free trees in honor of earth day!

mom-cation

i'm sick. nuggie is sick with her first cold. so the two of us are very whiny. izzy the pup is also whiny, but just b/c she's a puppy and that's what they do. today she decided she needed to dig up my basil i was trying to grow. then she peed on the kitchen floor right in front of me. i don't think she likes me very much. we're having sort of a crappy day over here. BUT - i want to count our blessings and know that this sicky icky whiny phase will pass...
- it's Easter weekend. a time to remember what a gift we've all been given by God.  it's also a wonderful time to spend with those close to you.

- the weather is beautiful and sunny today. chilly, but gorgeous. nuggie and i will bundle up and venture out for a walk. the fresh air will do us both some good.

- my summer financial aid finally got all taken care of. so now i can take my classes! still watching the mailbox anxiously every day for that nursing letter.

- i spent the evening last night with a sweet friend. she distracted nuggie wonderfully when the nugster got fussy. it gave me a great little mental break and i got to spend time with miss k!

- i finally got on the scale today. being sick and having no appetite can sure help your waistline! i've lost another pound!

- i'm alive and healthy (aside from this dumb cold) and i have an amazing wonderful hubby and a beautiful baby girl. we have our safe little home, two cars to drive and a fridge full of food. our bills are paid and we are blessed by many amazing friends and family. it is a great day! happy thursday everyone!