as if...

oh as if life could get ANY more hectic!?! well friends, it sure has. clinicals started this week. i had a patient! a real live patient to care for. i did real nursey stuff! it was awesome, but good golly it keeps me busy. monday i have class like normal, then i head to the hospital to pick up my patient info and then commences the hours of paperwork to prepare. then tuesday we show up at the hospital at 6:15 A-freaking-M!!! and do our thing. do more paperwork. show up again on wednesday bright and early, do more paperwork, turn it in. thursday is class which i've not even thought about since the week before since clinicals have consumed my last three days. fri/sat/sun are filled to max with cramming in all my studying. i thought i had no time before, UH, yeah, now i have even less time. but it's all good! many have gone before me and survived - i'll get through this too!! i'm sorry sweet friends if i'm ignoring you, trust me, it's not intentional at all.

in less hectic news - i've got an interview for a nurse extern position! not like i need one more thing to cram into my schedule - but some experience would be amazing and a little $$$ wouldn't hurt things either!

alright - that's all i got for now!
xoxo

pee and lists and clinicals - OH MY

hiya. i've just about survived another week. hoping i make it just a few more days!

a few things i think you all should know.

1. i got nuggie pee on me. what's the big deal you may be asking yourself?? well, i scooped her up from her crib about 2 min before it was to time to drop her off with the sitter and you know how you wring out a wet towel or something? yea, when i scooped her up the pee pee squished out and ran all down my leg. nice. a whole new way to get baby pee on me. how'd her diaper even get that full anyhow?!? i think she's got a mini water cooler stuffed away in that crib of hers.

2. we had a lovely little workshop at school this week about finding joy. how many times have i heard that? about a jillion. but maybe there is something there? something more than just feeling happy... like deciding to live a joyful life no matter the craziness life is throwing your way. i'm still sorta mulling this all over, but she suggested we dream out our very best version of life - i'm gonna think on this some more... what would my perfect life look like?

3. i'm seriously obsessing over pinterest.. really. who knew such a fabulous little site existed! so far i have found about a gazillion crafty holiday snacks to make... wish i could just make little foodies all day long. i've ALSO picked the most super fun 30th bday theme for bub and i. a totally 80's celebration! so it's not the most original idea ever, BUT seeing as how both bub and i were born in that fabulous decade i thought it would fit! so pinterest has helped me gather all sorts of totally tubular ideas for our big soiree!

4. i had orientation for clinicals today. i'm gonna be on an orthopedic floor and our instructor is amazing! she's seriously the sweetest person. so much anxiety has been lifted away! we also had our head-to-toe checkoffs and i passed that too. whew! i feel like i can breath a little!

happy wednesday lovelies!

One Year Old!

how is it possible that we celebrated nuggie's 1st birthday this past saturday?? how is my little babes so grown already?!? this year went by WAY too fast! 

 so while she doesn't technically turn 1 till the 15th, we had a little tiny party for her this weekend b/c i've got to be out of town for her actual birthday :-( but she's little bitty - all she cares about is that she got to eat cake!

here's nugg's snacky table. lots of kid friendly nibbles - animal crackers, grapes and mini vanilla wafers. and of course CUPCAKES!!

 my happy baby :-)

 i didn't get a great pic of her tutu... but she had a "tutu cute" party! and i must give a shoutout to shannon who helped with the AMAZING invites and the sweet bow nuggie is wearing!

 she loved her cupcake. although, all she really ate was the frosting. she just kept squishing her hand in it and then licking it off :-)

mommy and daddy splurged and bought her a fisher-price incrediblock. she LOVES it! she's so into sorting and hiding things in other things that when i saw this i knew i had to get it for her. i know it was a little pricey, but we don't really buy her much. she's received almost all her toys, clothes, nursery stuff, basically everything as gifts or hand me downs, so it was fun to buy her a present.

my sweet, darling daughter. we love her sooo much and more each day. she is the absolute most precious gift from God. it has been the most challenging and amazing year and i so look forward to many more to come.

xoxoxo

i'm drowning!!! (ok, not really)

i've got a doozy of a sinus infection... frap my luck. i was sitting in lecture this morning and could hardly hear our instructer, my ears are so full of crud. so i hustled my hiney down to the walgreens walk in clinic and got checked out and there ya go. infected sinus (sini??) the NP i saw said i should try a netti pot. i've avoided those tiny tea pots like the plague. who wants to dump water in one nostril only to have it drip out the other? but since i now have the plague and can no longer run from it, i caved and bought one. i thought about waiting till bub came home, just to you know, sorta supervise or save me when i would inevitably inhale the water and become the first drowning victim to actually not die in water. but i thought, nuggie is with me, she'll save me and do i even really want bub to see me doing this to my nose? so i prepped the pot and poured! and it is a little tea pot of heaven. if you have a cold/allergies/sinus issues i highly recommend using one. it's like a soothing little shower for your nostrils. i'm feeling better all ready!!!

second, totally unrelated topic. i somehow ended up on the mailing list for this crazy catalog that sells like kids and parents matching clothes. it's some weirdo european thing i guess cause all the sizes are in weirdo formations. they also happen to sell matchy matchy pj's for like EVERYONE in the whole family.

this is the best pic i could find... it does not do the wonderfulness of this idea justice. i'm already seeing it now - christmas morning, like 2024 - nuggie will be like 14 and i'll insist that the WHOLE fam wears their matching pajamas. oh yes - it will be grand :-p

oh what a week...

it is a wonderful friday! the sun is shining and there is a lovely breeze. every window in the house is open wide! after the week we've had around here it's nice to hear the birds and feel the sweet, fresh air.

nuggie got her first big, bad, ugly sickness. she was so quiet last saturday, just sort of out of it and not her normal, happy little self. late that night she woke up with a fever and a bit of a cough, the next night she woke up with a much higher fever and even worse cough. she's been a sicky sickerson all week. i took her to the dr on monday, they said it was just a nasty bug. wednesday night she seemed to be having trouble breathing so back to the dr she went and the poor little nuggie has bronchiolitis :-( they tried an albuterol treatment on her, but it didn't help. so we've just been trying to keep her comfy and resting and hydrated. she is pitiful.

during all the sick nuggie sadness - school kicked my ass. we had a fundamentals test monday, which i did fine on since i had studied all weekend before nuggie really got too sick. but thursday we had a pharm test, a math for meds test and a our skills checkoff on catheters. and i totally failed that pharm test. i can't let this happen again. i went from an A to a C with one bad test grade. it's so hard though - nuggie and bub are my world. they come first. my baby was sick and she needed me - so pharm went to the back burner. but, school is a priority too. it's so hard to find that balance. bub tried to convince me to leave several evenings to go study, but i just couldn't leave my little love. but now i'm stuck - i've dug myself a deep hole and i've got to get out of it.

we are all tired and worn out and now i'm sick too :-( so we're gonna sleep a lot this weekend and relax (but not TOO much, still gotta study) and start fresh on monday. we have a coupon for le peep, so i think we'll take nuggie over there tomorrow morning for breakfast and then go on a nice long walk in the park... that sounds like the perfect remedy for the week we've all had.

watcha lookin' at???

i gotta join in on the fall tv blogging fun! i keep reading others blogs - what they're watching, what they love and i'd like to toss my two cents in as well!!

since school has taken over my brain and we're lucky enough to have a DVR now, i'm not exactly sure what night every show is on (bub handles the DVR'ing) and i'm just too lazy to go googling right now. but you guys are smart - you know where to find these...

my favs:
 - parenthood. i haven't always loved this show, but it has sucked me in for whatever reason. i'm not 100% sold on it just yet, but you know, i like it...

- my new, total fav is the New Girl! oh. my. goodness. i haven't laughed that much at a tv show in a long, long time. i really hope it sticks around! zoey d. is fabulous!!!

- and since i was watching the New Girl last week i stuck around and watched Raising Hope. so funny too! i need to catch up on last season i think - it was so cute and funny.

- i'm also of course loyal to modern family and the office. modern family was amazing last week! the office, eh... i gotta say, it isn't the same without boss michael, but we've watched forever, i gotta stick it out.

- and bub really enjoys happy endings, so we watch that one too!

i have to say i had some hopes for that new one, whitney - but ugh, such a disappointment and WAY too much audience laughing. who even does that anymore???

ok and sorta not related, but sorta it is - am i the only 20'something (i can say that for a few more months!!) who watches days of our lives? i have watched since about 8th grade and still i love it. if you are a days fan too, will you please step forward and announce yourself? i need someone to gab with about it, b/c bub really doesn't want to hear about rafe and sami and dario and melanie and the saga of their lives in salem!!

let go and let God

i knew that nuggie would eventually come down with a bug or a nasty cold or something - but being in the middle of it now is still really making it hard to be a calm, collected mommy. my sweet babes is sick :-( she woke up early this morning with a fever and a nasty cough. she's had a fever all day. her little eyes are red and sad looking. it completely breaks my heart and is making me a neurotic, crazy mess - more than usual that is :-) i wonder - does she need to go to the ER? should i sleep in her room tonight so i can check her little forehead every 30 minutes to see if she's burning up? do i leave her in jammies or let her run around in just a D? is she too hot, to cold? does she need ice water? you read the books, you ask all your mommy friends and STILL having your first child being really sick for the first time makes you doubt and question everything.

add to this that i have a fundamentals test tomorrow, two tests and a skill checkoff (those lovely catheters) on thursday. oh and for some awful reason, though all my grades are the same and nothing has changed, my total grade for class went from a B to an F when i check it online? i emailed my adviser, but that's on my mind. i know it's got to be an error, but what the FRAP.

i also feel like i'm being an awful friend these days. neglecting friendships and the people i love. the house is a wreck. dinner is going to be done SO stinking late tonight. i have no time to work out. my sweet hubby is getting ignored :-(  EVERYTHING is out of my control right now.

and still - God is there. i had a dream last night, and let me say, i'm not normally the, "God told me something in a dream." sorta girl. but last night i had this very specific dream and God was saying to me, let go and let God. like, let it all go, He's in control, it's all going to be ok. and so, though it feels like my little bitty world is fraying at the seams right now, i'm going to try to just give it all to Him and rest in that.

i would add though that if you're the praying sort, would you say a little prayer for our sweet baby girl, who's real name is indeed NOT nuggie :-) but rosalie. she could use a little healing and a good night of sleep.